When A Heart Breaks

I feel like I have a lot on my mind today.  A lot to write.

This past weekend I have felt depressed.  I have felt so insecure, so unloved.  Yet, the Lord has blessed me with good time together with friends after all.  In those moments, I was joyful and thankful.

I finally feel like I am coming out of my funk.  I pray Lord that I would continue to surface above the waters that I felt like I was drowning in.

Friday in particular, I felt very saddened.  I decided to sit down, and I began to write a song on the guitar. The lyrics just flowed, and they were on par with exactly how I was feeling: "You walked me slowly down the sidewalk, you drove me swiftly down the road.  So, tell me where to go when I am trying not to linger in the memories of old.  Right now, I feel defeated.  Right now, I feel alone.  Right now, my soul is aching, cause I know you're moving on."

Take these words, and apply them in various areas of my life.  My heart feels broken, but I can't go back.  Just have to keep moving forward.  I have to keep my focus on the Lord, and pray for his words and joy in every situation, even when my heart breaks.

I have an Old Testament final tomorrow, which I should probably be studying for...